doin'.. time?

been wondering if i'll make the time to cry
and hoping that the time i waste can't fly

paying on the last day or the first day every month
keep holding on to nothing for myself


don't even know what i spend myself on anymore
starting to wonder what i'm spending all of me up for

haven't had a chance yet to plan the life i live
have not found the place that holds sacred what i give

before i used my minutes up
i've faded most the way
not doubting that my future sucks

the proof is in today