living and then dying?

how on earth does one girl
go from age 20 to 27 so fast like that?
like this.
speeeeeeeeeeding through
like a blast of light
corrosion occurring
and thought provoking
at every breath
stopped for..
but shot past again.
am i actually living this-
am i this girl-
wasn't i her before this began?
i was
and it was different
but not
..better
(not worse either)
it's just that girl is not that girl anymore:
she's still me
(still)
going through it much too
fast